Day 7

So it’s now been a week since the prescription and thought I’d update with how it’s gone.

The few days absence is probably indicative of how it’s been , but it’s not all bad news and some very surprising.

The side effects still ongoing, the general feeling of being unwell and constantly tired.

Appetite has returned and although still suffering the odd panic attack nothing like before .

I had planned a weekend away this weekend at a festival I had been looking forward to for months, but I decided now is not the best time to go solo camping with thousands of others

Reluctantly I sold my ticket and succumbed to a weekend at home. My thought process was that in the last few days a sort of calm has washed over me at times .

It’s. a strange feeling but not an awful one, and maybe I am feeling a little better. I feel that even though this is a very small step at looking to a brighter future it maybe nothing at all and to feel ill away from home could be so counter productive

It is my birthday this weekend so I’d hate to remember it in a bad way . I have decided to take a weekend break in November . By then my dosage will be correct and side effects hopefully have worn off.

The surprising news is that my OH came to my aid in a way I hadn’t seen before . The support last week and over the weekend has been amazing and although my youngest daughter has been superb , I hadn’t counted on quite such emotional strength my OH has given me

I read somewhere that during mental crisis we blame everyone around for the feelings of despair we are suffering..who knows but for now I’m feeling positive and my problems although still at their height I may be looking over the edge at light at the end of the tunnel